Waiting.

Sixteen days until I leave home. Eighteen until I leave the country. And at that point I won't be seeing Canada for five months, by and large the longest I've ever spent outside the country, the closest to that being three weeks in Colorado training a couple winter seasons ago. It's intimidating and exciting, going it alone and never having done anything like this before. And I feel like I'm at this point where it's just a waiting game. Impatient and calm all at the same time.  

I'm enjoying the last bit of time spent here, the fall season having turned more to winter than anything else. Making working in the bush a trying task. And drive to go back out into the cold on my weekends that much harder to accomplish.  

A glimmer of sunshine in an otherwise dreary week.  

It's left me with this lack of motivation. The combination of cold and knowing that I've got such a limited amount of time before I'm on an adventure I've planned for the last year and a half. it's what I've been looking forward to, and so it seems everything else has gone by the wayside. 

Finding 15Lbs puff ball mushrooms. Apparently they're delicious fried, so I'm transplanting it and attempting to re grow them in my yard.  

And yet at the same time, maybe this is the perfect time to just do absolutely nothing. The calm before the storm. The storm in this case being an insane amount of travel, layovers in china, foreign languages and sensory overdrive in Japan. Surely this is going to be the last chance I have for a while to enjoy the simple pleasures of a small town, knowing everyone and cozying up in my bed knowing that I'm really not missing much outside in the snow.  

aside from the odds and ends of tidying up all of my crap. Organizing my gear so it's all tucked away in it's spots. Reluctantly cleaning out my Subaru.  

At this point it seems almost okay that I'm simply working my last days in forestry, going to the gym in my spare time, cleaning and relaxing. Although the in ending guilt I tent to get when I'm not doing something outside creeps in, I think now is the time to just put that aside a bit. Enjoy the moment. Pack my bags. Drink hot tea. 

Clean my car.